Habits

2026-02-27 Friday: slept from ~midnight til 0730 but woke up exhausted. I think i’m coming down with cold/flu on top of this other weird health shit. I did slow 50 jj to try to not overdo it. meditation was ok given my state of mind. breakfast was some dried cranberries, and some peanuts.
2026-02-26 Thursday: bad sleep, 50 jj, someothing healthy for breakfast. Still spooked about health stuff so meditation was a struggle but managed it.
2026-02-25 Wednesday: slept well but super cheat: I took double the anxiety meds -double an already low dose, but still. woke scared, 25jj only today. meditation was scattered. Headed into work, have an doc appointment at least
2026-02-24 Tuesday: bad sleep, taking the day off -still got in the 50/25, bass playing, meditation. Got a doctor’s appointment for tomorrow.
2026-02-23 Monday: terrible sleep, health scare freaking me out, doctor closed today, played bass, meditated, 50jj, 25pu
2026-02-22 Sunday: bad sleep, still dealing with spooky health, 50jj, 25 pu, meditated distractedly, played bass.
2026-02-21 Saturday: slept poorly woke up with health scare still got in 50jj, 25pu, played a lot of bass. meditated but was supremely distracted.
2026-02-20 Venusday: slept well woke 0730, 50jj, 25pu, oats and nuts, meditated, played bass
2026-02-19 Jupiterday: woke 0600 meditated in bed again, oats and cranberries for breakfast, 60jj, about to play bass.
2026-02-18 Mercurysday: woke 0600 meditated in bed, ate oats and cranberry, 50jj, played bass.
2026-02-17 Marsday: woke 0530 may have drifted til 0730. 50jj, cranberries oats raisins for breakfast, meditation, played bass.
2026-02-16 Moonday: woke 0700 Ate cranberrry and oats, 50jj. meditated. played bass.
2026-02-15 Sunday: Woke 0800 Ate oats and raisins, meditated. ordered groceries, played bass.
2026-02-14 Saturnday: Woke at 0700 ate the usual. 50jj, 25pu. meditated. bought a bass.
2026-02-13 Friday: Woke at 0700, ate some raisins and oats. 50 jj, meditation: distracted and non-judgemental about being distracted. I wonder if i should be MORE judgemental.
2026-02-12 Thursday: Well I didn;t write this down so who can say, but I know I would have been pissed had i skipped eating a decent breakfast and exercising. I did write down stuff in my meditation journal: I was tired and easily distracted; but I noted that even given that, I would have been considered it a success as I wasn’t freaking out about it.
2026-02-11 Wednesday: Wake at 0700, unusually i think I slept the night. 50, jj, raisins, oats. Meditation intrerupted a bunch so I added time to try and make up for it. I worry I’ve learned a trick that feels/loos like equanimity but actually isn’t
2026-02-10 Tuesday: Wake at 0700, 500jj raisins, cranberry, oats for breakfast. Middling med. Nonduality again. I have experienced the full vertigo of that and i get it intellectually but it’s pretty hard for me to recapture the real experience of it.
2026-02-09 Moonday: woke first at 0500, back to sleep ~0600, wake at 0700. fresh bread for breakfast. 50jj. wrist starting to jeal hope to be able to return to pushups tomorrow. Good session. impermanence, equanimity, begin again.
2026-02-08 Sunday: woke ~0700, back to sleep, out of bed at a lazy 0930. Cleaned up a bit, prepped some laundry. Sat ten minutes where i felt a bit stuck. 30jj -I’d forgotton til after meditation